MyCookieCrumbled

~~~Dan's POV~~~ I got out our two favourite mugs as the water in the kettle boiled.  I put the teabags in the mugs and turned round and leant back against the counter. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes, I felt entirely  euphoric. Just knowing that someone I deeply loved with every part of me, loved me just as much. I can't even remember a time in my life where i've felt this happy. The kettle boiled and I finished making the tea,  I picked up the mugs and brought them to the table and sat down. "Phil?" I shouted. "Are you alright?" "Yeah! I'll be down in a minute!" I heard him say. I laughed. "Okay! Make sure you don't fall in the

~~~Phil POV~~~ "Whats up Dan?" He looked nervous, he was twiddling his thumbs. He sighed and looked at me. "Dan... what do you want to tell me?" He looked at me again, then stepped forward and wrapped his arms around me. "I...I don't know if I can Phil. I... just don't want you to hate me." I wrapped my arms around him now, and said. "Dan.. don't be silly. I won't hate you, whatever it is." He looked up at me again and cupped my face with one of his hands. "You promise, Phil?" he said with a tear is in eye. I nodded slowly. He reached up and slowly kissed me once more, I smiled against his lips. He pulled away then looked at me with a s

~~~Dan's POV~~~ I have to be honest, I was took by surprise. His lips were soft and gentle against mine, almost innocent in a way. He started to deepen the kiss, shocking me slightly...I've never seen this, lust side of Phil...but I can't lie, I liked it a lot. I kissed him back, bringing my arms up and I ran my hands through his black hair. I felt him smile against my lips and wrapped his arms around my waist. This must have carried on for a couple of minutes, and trust me I wished it lasted longer, but I was soon cut off by Phil's phone going off. We both broke off at the same time, and slowly let go of one another. I stepped back as P

~~~Phil's POV~~~ "Dan..." I took a deep breath. "I'm...I'm so sorry." He wiped his eyes and hugged his arms. "But why Phil?" "I just..." I felt tears coming. "I just..." He walked towards me and hugged me. "No it's my fault." he sobbed. "I should have realised straight away! But..." he paused. "I was too ignorant Phil, I'm so sorry please, I'm so sorry." My cut arm was stinging like hell, and my head and heart were hurting. "No Dan." I used my clean arm and tightened the hug, bringing him closer. He started to cry into my shirt. "Dan...listen to me it's not your fault okay? I promise it isn't. I brought this all on myself I deserve thi-"

~~~Dan's POV~~~ Wow. Man, I love maltesers. Me and Phil took turns feeding each other a malteser. I was blushing of course, for the entire duration. "Okay Phil." I said and held up my hands. "No more. I'm actually fat. I don't want to become a life sized whale." He laughed and put the box down. Weirdly, as he did, he winced and grabbed his arm. I raised an eyebrow, but then he quickly used his arm to scratch his head awkwardly. "Um...You okay Phil?" I asked him. "Huh, what? Yeah...I-I'm fine" he stuttered. I slowly moved closer to him. "You sure? Whats wrong with your arm?" "Nothing Dan. Really. I think I scratched it on a door handl

A/N I'm sorry readers but I'd thought I'd just say... This chapter contains self harm, and id thought to say incase this may be triggering in anyway, please dont read. Also this is entirely fictional, Phil isn't actually depressed etc . Anyway enjoy chapter 13. ~~~Phils POV~~~ I missed him already. But he wouldn't miss me would he. Oh no, he probably couldn't wait to get out the house. *Don't think he cares about you, ha that's a lie. He feels sorry for you. * That's right he doesn't care. Who would care about me? I don't even care about myself. Everything Sammy said in those emails was true. I wasn't attractive, I wasn't funny. I'm ug

~~~Dan POV~~~ I stepped out of the shower and quickly dried myself with the towel. I pulled on my grey sweatpants and my danosaur tshirt. I dumped my dirty clothes in the wash bin, then stood up to view myself in the mirror. I groaned as I saw my hair. It was in its natural state. My hobbit hair. Eugh. I was cut off thought by a quiet sob from downstairs. Phil? Why was he crying? What's wrong with him? I quickly shot out the bathroom and trampled down the stairs to the living room. "Phil..?" I quietly said, as I stepped in. "Yes Dan!" he said and looked at me with a smile. Huh, he's okay? Then what was that... "Um, you okay?" I said,

~~~Phil POV~~~ We both had another lazy day. It was great. I loved spending time with Dan, and we were doing my favourite things too! This just couldn't get any better. We must've finished watching about 10 DeathNote episodes when Dan got up, and disappeared upstairs to get a shower. I took this time as an opportunity to check my phone. 10 new emails and 100+ twitter notifications. Woah. The twitter notifications wasn't the thing that shocked me... Oh no, I get that all the time. It was the emails... no one knew my private email address. Not even Dan, none of my friends, and certainly none of the fans. It was purely for business and ba

~~~Dan POV~~~ I didn't want to let him go. Ever. I was so content and relaxed, with Phil just lying in my arms. I could feel his soft breathing on my arms, the small 'thud' of his heart. Each time there was a crack of thunder, he didn't flinch, didn't yelp, he even didn't make a noise. All because I was holding him, securing him, making him feel safe. It must have been at least 20 minutes when I decided to see how he was and finally speak. I said his name quietly and shook him slightly, but there was no response. I shuffled my self downwards so I was more on his level, and gently moved a lock of black hair to one side. And of course, he w

~~~Phils POV~~~ Damn. I couldn't sleep. Why? Thunder. Oh no, it's not because the noise it makes is causing me not sleep, I'ts that I'm absolutely terrified of thunder. I brought my knees up to my chest and dove under the covers. I hugged my knees, tight and close and closed my eyes. "Please..." A crack of thunder. "S-Stop." I shivered. I could feel tears coming, I was so scared. *If you need me, I'm just next door.* I remember in my head, what Dan said. Should I? No Phil that's childish, there is no need to wake up Dan because of some petty fear. Another crack of thunder and I shivered.  Okay Phil c'mon, he's your friend he will h